Tuesday, February 07, 2006
anger management.
eh eh.
im here, ONCE AGAIN.
see, i jus cant keep myself glued to my book.
i jus need to keep coming online.
and then the next thing i'll do, is to BLOG.
im a fuckin sinner.
*sigh
hope i'll go offline by 10 which is like 1 min to go.
obviously i wont go offline on time.
but i try to go aft i blog.
i cant swear but i can promise.
right ?
anw, i felt tht im a changed person.
but i dono how long am i gonna be like tht
am i gonna be like tht till forever?
i hope i can.
im like so holy now which i dono why.
but seriously, I LOVE GOD.
ppl know nothing.
but i know what he did to me.
Joline, don be sad la.
dono how to console you also man.
*sigh
ur given what u have now.
don grumble or complain thou things might be unfair to you.
but what to do.
thats what we call, LIFE.
its either u accept it or you're gonna suffer.
hmmm..
i sounded like i got "wen hua" huh?
*laughs
nearly quarrel with mom jus now.
didnt quarrel but i argued with her.
i reali didnt wan to la.
but i cant help it.
whatever she say or do, reali made me angry.
i controlled my anger towards her for days adi.
and today i cant control la.
and well, its bcos of my schol allowance.
*laughs
i argued back and then bro shouted, "honour your parents"
i reali tried.
i try so hard not to argue with her but i seriously cant.
then i shouted back, "i reali wan to honour her but she don deserve it"
oops.
i felt so sorry now.
then my bro said back the same thing.
"me too, always wanted to honour her but i also cant control"
bcos my mom say things very ....
but well, bros and i have been like hlepin one another.
kept remindin each other of tht.
"Honour your parents"
so Joline, Honour your parents.
*laughs
i cant wait to go Lighthouse this sunday.
i hope i'll find where i belong.
i wish to find the feeling that i wanted.
YAY.
praise the Lord.
m e s m e r i s e d 9:55 PM
