Tuesday, February 28, 2006
what's wrong ?
well the reason i decided to blog once again is bcos of
HIM * abeely.
i saw his nick jus now.
first one was.
"yes, once again im dumb to believe it. Fuck the bullshit la" - knn !!! cb !!! fuckin no mood to study.
second one which is present one.
- since she want it this way, so be it.
from the nick everyone can guess something is wrong with him n gf.
i msged april n eliza st8 on msn to tell them how happy i am.
but when i saw his second one.
i jus felt so sad.
i dono why.
tears filled my eyes suddenly.
WTF.
i tot im over him totally.
and tht i hate him so fuckin much now.
but why am i feeling tis way ?
can somebody pls tel me ?
do i stil love him ?
i don tink so.
but yet im feelin sad.
whats wrong now ?
question marks in my head .
i tot im strong again and i wont tear for him.
i reali hate him.
so fear of tht haunting me again.
i don wan to live in sorrow.
i wanna be happy like how i am now.
i don wanna be sad again.
i hate tht feeling.
i hope abeely jus go and die.
go straight to hell.
don ever wanna see him again.
but i know i'll cry.
FUCK.
tangles in my heart
i don love him.
i like eden.
im interested in eden.
not abeely.
yes eden NOT ABEELY.
argh....!
so feel like crying again.
why did i even check his nick.
every fucking single day.
why am i doing it ?
i don wanna be stuck in situations.
i don wanna be sucha pathetic state.
i wan ..
- tangles in my heart.
m e s m e r i s e d 12:47 AM
