Tuesday, April 11, 2006
LOVE vs HATE.
chalet ytd at downtown.
went with april.
initially we tot was herman's chalet but when we went down.
its actuali their class chalet.
and my pri sch fren, diana was thr.
hahah.
initially it was quite boring.
but later on, it became better when we came back from changi village.
diana's fren, justin brought us to changi village to eat.
OMG can.
when i saw his car, i was shocked la.
its Mitsubishi Lancer.
thou i saw before la.
but then its like i don ever think any one my frens wil even own that la.
he's onli like 20 this yr.
and tht car was HIS.
i tot its like dad's car or something then share.
but its his OWN la.
OMG.
fucking nice sia.
so jealous.
then when he kinda speed, siala.
with the air intake sound plus the speed.
siala
damn cool la.
hahah.
k then drive ard changi village and Och.
kinda scary.
then we went back to the chalet.
stupid herman.
reali damn asshole.
never entertain us onli last few hours then entertain.
and its not entertain its DISTURB us pls.
walau.
but he was reali funny.
reali very very funny.
then after that he told me..
actuali im a nice guy jus tht chalet ma, mus be funny then fun.
WHAT THE FUCK.
funny shit can.
anw, i so wanna drive a car.
hahaha.
these few days been driven ard in cars.
so jealous.
but im lazy to take my license.
hahah.
SIAN.
ytd HE* asked me to be his gf.
i said no.
i jus dono.
i felt so weird.
i mean, thou i reali wanna be in a relationship
but when he asked me to be his gf, i jus don feel like commiting tht soon again.
so weird.
dono what am i thinkin.
i jus dono what i wan.
then tht day..
Abeely asked me whether i wan to be his gf anot.
what the hell sia.
its not the first time.
last week or something he asked the same thing.
i dono if he's serious or not.
but it sounds weird la.
like suddenly he came to me and said "Hey"
and said "imissu"
i seriously dono what he wants la.
why is he always like tht.
cant he jus let me go.
leave me alone ?
when i managed to forget him totally, he came.
then when i love him once again, he's gone.
this is so fucking madness la.
SIAN.
i so wanna cry.
today bro told me his backbone is slightly crooked.
like me sia.
thats called sclorosis.
spelling mistake but somethin like tht la.
anw, thats ok.
but he told me he might be COLOUR BLIND.
what the fuck.
when i heard tht.
i tot is another april's fool.
but he's freakin serious la.
OMG can
the nurse gave him refer letter.
might be onli.
because he cant read some of the numbers in tht colour book.
HAIS, sian.
COLOUR BLIND ?
WHAT THE FUCK.
and i quarrelled with granny jus now.
she is so fucking irritating.
i scolded and shouted at her like mad.
and i don feel bad at all.
she is reali fuckin irritating la.
then after that she got so angry.
she threw my maid's mattress and all tht out of the room
she always does tht.
i jus CANT STAND IT.
and she slammed the door so loud.
i jus don understand.
she is sick and weak but yet stil so HOT TEMPERED.
and guess what?
she close herself in the room and she FREAKINGLY FELL .
hit her head AND BLEED.
and jus nice my dad came back.
JUS WHAT THE HELL LA.
and then i went to clean her wound and all tht.
she obviously have dementia so cant rem i scolded her.
then she said she wanna sit with her grandchildren, which is me.
so i sat beside her and clean her wound.
I SO WANNA CRY LA CAN.
JUS KILL ME LA.
FUCK SHIT.
WHATS WITH THE WORLD.
THIS AND THAT.
THAT AND THIS ?
WHAT THE WORLD WAN FROM ME ?
I MEAN IT, JUS KILL ME.
IN ANYWAYS, JUS DO IT.
m e s m e r i s e d 7:13 PM
