Wednesday, May 10, 2006
i love home.
its nice to be home.
LOL.
stayed back aft school today to do PROJECT.
BUT, as usual, it din work out.
we TALKED.
talked abt many stuffs.
abt *skinny, MY HOSPITAL'S GUYS, blah blah..samuel, andin, tong, chong and ninewest.
LOL.
but i miss samuel THE MOST.
hahah.
funny shit.
ahya, we jus din do our proj la huh.
but NVM.
we WILL do it TML.
heh.
...................
was shocked ytd night.
was talking to dennis on the phone.
and then i saw "xiao jie lun calling" i was like WTF.
im reali shocked.
the more he msg n cal me, the more i am confused.
but yet..
I DONO.
i jus dono what i wan.
i felt so lost.
supposed to go out with him on fri.
today we msg, and i reminded him abt fri.
and he said, he jus rem fri is public holiday and tht he confirm with me again.
i jus HATE to hear this word la.
i so think that we are NOT GOING TO GO OUT.
but well, i've decided.
this wil be the LAST HOPE i have in him.
IF WE ARE ABLE TO GO OUT THIS FRI,
I WIL CONTINUE TO WISH N HOPE.
IF WE ARE NOT ABLE TO GO OUT THIS FRI,
THATS IT MAN, THATS THE END OF EVERYTHING.
I WIL FORGET HIM TOTALLY.
im jus so disappointed in him la ok.
like why is he so "HECK-CARE" but yet stil msg me on and off ?
like, does he reali think that im a substitute ?
jus so disappointed.
and dennis is so sweet.
jus dono what to say.
saw my watch is like SHIT, he bought me a watch.
heard tht i wanna get a external charger for my ipod, he got me one.
listened to my ipod and realised my earphone is lousy, he got me another brand.
and NOW.
know that my hp is spoiling bcos of my batt, HE GOT ME A NEW BATT.
aww..
that is like so sweet.
BUT.....
how i wish AB can be like that sweet to me.
how i wish that things turn out to be what i wanted.
BUT, things jus DON go your way.
how sad can that be ?
SIGH.
why do ppl in a r/s often come and go ?
why would someone wanna know that someone, got that someone and leave that someone ?
why is it always like that ?
ESP GUYS.
always take things for granted.
do they know what the hell are they doing ?
this is like soooo weird.
they can like tel you how much they love u.
can tell you how well they can treat you.
BUT..
in the end ?
they stil do that one simple thing, LEAVE YOUR LIFE ?
GET A LIFE LA.
don be too upset abt anything BABE.
im always here for you.
CHEER UP.
...............
jus read this email..
this is abt ME.
im a WEEPING WILLOW TREE.
Weeping Willow (Melancholy)
- likes to be stress free, loves family life,
full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very empathetic,
loves anything beautiful, musically inclined,
loves to travel to exotic places, restless, capricious,
honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with when pressured,
sometimes demanding, good intuition, suffers in love until they find that one loyal,
steadfast partner; loves to make others laugh.
full of hopes and dreams ?
hopes? NO.
DREAMS, YES YES YES.
likes to be stress free ? YES.
musically inclined ? i guess so.
can be influeced but is not easy to live with when PRESSURED ? hahaha, yeah man.
sometimes demanding ? OR IS IT ALL THE TIME DEMANDING ?
suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfast partner ..!!! OMG PLEASE. am i gonna suffer some more ? omg omg omg.
but it seems to be kinda true man.
m e s m e r i s e d 8:07 PM
