Tuesday, July 11, 2006
sadness in the heart.
im feeling sad again.
im feeling confused again.
im feeling lost again.
im feeling all sorts of feelings once again.
firstly, im stressed.
stress stress stress.
paper tml but yet i haven touch it yet.
and its 80 percent to pass.
how am i gonna make it thru ?
assessment this fri.
potential passers also failed.
WTF ?
furthermore im the one who failed and ALWAYS fail assessment.
what more can i expect on fri ?
im like so scared, so stressed up la.
but yet im really doing nothing.
i really got no interest in what im doing, seriously.
but jus why no one understands me ?
i wanna quit nursing.
QUIT QUIT QUIT.
jus why no one understands ?
im seriously feeling mixed up deep down.
who am i gonna love ?
or mayb should i say, shld i love ?
again, many thoughts but i dono what to write again.
GOD KNOWS WHAT IM THINKING.
GOD, pls help.
watch my life,
pass me by,
in the rearview mirror
pictures frozen in time
are becoming clearer
i dont wanna waste another day
stuck in the shadow of my mistakes
cause i want you
and i feel you
driving underneath my skin
like a hunger
like a burning
to find a place i've never been
now im broken
and im faded
im half the gal i thought i would be
but you can have what's left of me
i've been dying inside
little by little
no where to go
but going out of my mind
in endless circles,
running from my self until,
you give me a reason for standing still
its falling faster
barely breathing
give me something
to believe in
tell me, its all in my head
take what's left
of this gal
make me whole, once again
m e s m e r i s e d 11:58 PM
