Sunday, February 24, 2008
7:49pm, sunday
i really don understand.
stay home also so stress out.
cant even give me a sunday peace meh.
my bro really really hopeless.
i really dono wat he yearns for.
dad told me to take aerospace in NITEC.
he decided tht day.
and today he told me he wants to go bck n study.
jus bcos his CHURCH FRENs told him this and that.
i really don understand la.
worst thing is...
he told dad abt it.
obviously my dad get angry la.
dad deifinitely WONT agree to let him retake O levels la.....
then...
shout here shout there.
scold here scold there.
walau eh.
i really don understand la.
bro wants to be a PE teacher.
which means to pass O levels go poly take his SPORTS course.
and then go NIE.
then dad said, "do u think u can pass ur O levels ? u r not cut out to study la,whats the point of wasting time ? u ady wasted 2 3 yrs ady and u stil wanan continue wasting time ? i dono wat is ur passion. u dropped chinese u dropped A MATHS evreyday play guitar thinkin it wil motivate u to study ?"
WAH I REALLY DON UNDRESTAND LA.
i think its VERY stressful to be in TAN FAMILY.
who can i blame being in this family ?
thanks to the other TANS relative that evrey small little thing can lead to such TENSION.
i think its jus a small matter.
wasting time or not, its our own life.
who knows my bro can succeed ?
but thanks to THOSE TANS, my dad tends to worry alot for our future.
and i really really DISLIKE THEM.
i promise, once i earn my own money, i only care bt my own family.
relative ?
who is relative ?
i dono them.
i PROMISE i dono any TAN family member aft that.
i only recognise MY MOM'S SIDE.
THE LIAW SIDE.
too bad.
i wil drift from my dad's side slowly.
I WILL.
die i also dono who they are.
i only know my grandma, my parents, my brothers, my partner n his family as well as my mom's side.
dad's side ? SORRY I DONO YOU.
I PROMISE !
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