Friday, May 16, 2008
6:32 AM.
bloody hell, i didnt slp for the whole night.
couldnt sleep la.
so many thoughts.
too many until i couldnt sleep.
hanged up the phone w bee early cos he used his hp to call me.
so i told him to rest early....
in the end i cant sleep la.
-_-
tot of how to celebrate my 21st.
LOL
abit too early la but who cares.
mus plan.
and i got like 60 ppl to invite ?
hahahaha.
60 minus those who last min might not appear, so shld b left w 40 ppl.
hahaha.
then think think think... and tot of baby's bday in july.
july and tht means ard 2 more mths to go.
and i tot of wat to buy for him and i GOT NO IDEA LA.
seriously, this time is so dead.
TOTALLY NO IDEA AT ALL.
first , i tot of wallet....
then i realised baby's wallet is Gucci and so he might not wana change.
then... i tot of watch...
BUT his watch is AX watch which i don think he wanna change.
then i tot of shoe...
BUT cannot, buy shoe means allowin him to walk away, so CANNOT.
then i tot of MAYB jeans....
BUT can forget it also... cos he has 18 FREAKING PAIRS of Levi's jeans.
then i tot of tops.... MAYB can.
sucks la.
if i wanna buy wallet or watch, tht means i have to buy something better then Gucci or AX.
and I CANT AFFORD LA.
its not v good to have such branded bf.
LOL -_-
anws... i tot of many things la.
fuck, I CANT SLEEP.
and in a few more hours time im going to the polyclinic.
sigh.
i cant wait to see CLEVELAND la.
walau.
i hate ns i hate ns.
btw.... it feels good to be appreciated.
jus a simple trip down to yishun ytd to meet him made him feel so happy.
but i mean, if i don make such sacrifies for him, then for whom ?
since he can always come al the way to pasir ris for jus few hrs just to meet me...
then i shld also do some sacrifies, isnt it baby ? (:(:
next tuesday, im going to CGH for interview.
they called up tht day already.
ha.
felt kinda happy yet not so ready.
THE REAL LIFE IS STARTING .... soon.
the life of a staff nurse... i am so not ready yet.
kinda hope IF they wanna hire me, then start in sept or something.
when they nv call, i worry.
now that they called, i also kinda scared.
LOL
i dono why but baby is so deserved to love.
LOL
"wa baby feel so happy for u la tues go for e interview.. don worry sure can become staff nurse... they need this type of professionial which is my sweetheart xiu xiu"
then i said like im not v ready to work as an adult ....
"baby grown up le ma its time to work as in adult, don keep thinkin of slack life anymore. and its time to prove to ur parents that u're an adult. from now on don let them worry for u anymore alright ? i know u can do it cos u're strong baby. bee wil always be thr to support too k ! STRIVE HARD FOR OUR FUTURE. love you"
he doesnt know but when i read those msges... i jus felt v touched.
afterall, i think he's the type of guy im lookin for.
i need someone to lead me.
i need someone who can encourage me when im feeling down.
i need someone who can trust and believe in me.
and most imptly, i need someone who is mature.
i dono.
i think its time to stop playing.
up till now, i stil feel kinda weird being w him.
its like, we were frens from quite sometime ago.
i dont notice him and he didnt notice me either.
from a not v close fren to lovers.
haha.
think of it, i STILL wanna laugh.
everything seems so yesterday.
so loved.
so love...
(:
he can be sarcastic too la.
basket.
think of the sarcastic part, i wanna punch him.
ytd we were eating chicken rice...
then he asked if i wan to drink soup...
so i said "don wan, why ?"
he said "cos ur having sore throat"
so i said, "i don wan....."
then he can say something like "why don wan ? ppl ask u drink alcohol also never hear u say don wan.... ppl ask u TAH u also TAH... drink soup then don wan..."
then i got nothing to say.
LOL
but it was kinda funny la.
i dono.
im very in love with CLEVELAND YEO.
very.
how can i not ?
CANT.
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